Well, I grew up in Mobile, and I was a victim of child abuse. I didn't really have a good upbringing, so I never had a good self-image because of that. I was never successful in any of my jobs or careers because I didn't have the self confidence.
I don't know, they (parents) hated me from the beginning. I think they wanted a girl and they got me. So my mother said she had to stop my father from beating me when I was crying in my crib. So it went on and on. I can remember from the time that I had memory, I can remember them treating me like an unwanted child. And because of all that, I've never had a good self-image, like I said before.
You just get so depressed some days, you don't want to do anything. You don't want to talk to anybody, and you just think that people are mean and they're not, and then I get up and I walk around, and the blood start flowing and it kind of goes away. But you never get rid of those memories in childhood.
I've just been through so many jobs and all, and I don't know what I would want to be successful at. I guess I can say I was never foolish enough to have any dreams. I've never had anything, so I don't miss having anything. But I've never had any dreams or anything. I just try to live a peaceful life. I want to live a peaceful life and die a peaceful death when the time comes. That's all I really want out of life. I'm 58, so I'm just living my life day-to-day. I just, I'm nice to everybody. Most people are nice to me, but I just live my life. I don't really dream or anything.
I don't have any friends, really. I do like talking to people, but as far as friends go, I don't have any friends. Every friend I've ever had is just kind of went away, or I moved away. But that's okay. As you get older, it doesn't bother you that much. A lot of things don't bother you as you get older, you worry less and less what people think of you as you get older, believe it or not.
I just try to be a good person and I like to talk to people. I would like to play chess with you, but I don't have a board. Believe it or not, I had a chess board when I came here, but it was so heavy I couldn't carry it around. I gave it to somebody.